Wasnt in the right mood to blog recently...
Depressed by some stuff...
Was drinkin jus now...really wanna get drunk...
Really wan to rot n die out there....At the bridge..
Really really really very fuckin bad mood...
I wan to...but cant...It's been a habit...
Every sms i wanted to send, ends up in the draft...
I cant send it...
I know wat to do...I know i cant...I know wats right...
But i jus cant help it...
Tired at work...but it doesnt even compare to how im feeling...
Hell...was it someting i did ?
I really wan to stay isolated for afew days...
I felt tis feeling, twice in my 16 years life...
But life has to go on...
The world wont stop moving coz im isolated...
Time still goes, the water still flows...
Its obvious she may not feel it, but i do..
The only 1 i can blame is me, myself...
For sayin it too early, for even saying it in the first place...
Shouldnt hav...really shouldnt hav sia...
Now like tat...mayb till the day i forget about her...
Wat i feel isnt jus the prob...Its us even being frens again...
Stupid..REGRET....WTF !...
ARGH !!!...
How stupid can i be...sayin someting like tat without tinkin...
I need some1 now...but i know there wont b any1...
Its my life n its mine alone, no1 is gonna pity me n stop the entire flow...
They got their lives, i got mine...so jus let me sink into depression...
N hopefully get out of it myself...then will i get strength to stand again...
Other than her words i don wan any others...
I hav already been mentally prepared for tis...
I know wat will happen...
So i jus hav to face reality n wait...
I hav put u first in my heart, hopefully someday u will notice...
If u dont...u will still b first...
I dont care anymore...Do wat u hav to...
I don wan to b a burden...
A weight bringing u down and a cause of conflict between u n him...
I don wan to ruin it...coz it might b ur fate to know him...
so...watever u do i will support...jus don ever b bothered by me...
I don wan to bring u down along with me...
Go...
I really m speechless...Pls jus go...
Enjoy it...while life lasts...
Im ok... :)
HAHAHA Im fine now after exploding...
Tink bout him like i tink bout u...don waste my efforts...
♥ @ 1:14 PM