Hi....
New blog here...
Ok...im spend quite a while doin it...
Gonna tell onli ppl i wan in to see it...its kinda my hiding place so.......
Ya....somehow like tat..
Mood:Bad lately...
Attitude:didnt sense any different...
Im having a bad mood coz...
1st) N LEVEL...
-fuckin N level !
-Somemore I hav to do around 70 to 70 cm art piece for it !!!
-Stressed up by stuff lately, no mood to study
-frens claim they r talkin to a piece of meat/bag of bones lately
(My soul needs some SOUL-SEARCHING)*cold*
2nd) No freakin talent to do art
- Not jus talent !!!, NO INSPIRATION...
-I can onli admire others work coz of my UNWORTHY work...
-Its a disgrace for my standart of art at sec4 !!!
-Don noe wat to do...ppl can visualise their final piece, I hav troubles seeing it now zzz
3rd) Relationship
- She has to break with me coz her mom found out
(Y IS THE SAME DAMN TING KEEP HAPPENING TO ME !!!!!!!!)
-I CANT SAY IM FINE, ITS ALRIGHT N JUS LAUGH IT OUT...
-Im having mixed feelings now, I feel pain, stress, abit of bitterness, numb
AIYA ITS JUS PLAIN WEIRD LA...
-Haix I noe i cant blame any1 for it, so if we r meant to b together we will b...im too tired, I'll let fate take control...
4th) Body
-Short
-Fat
-IM NOT EVEN FIT...
-Body, Mind, Soul....
Body dying, jus hanging on
Mind corrupted, mixed up, busy
Soul lost somewhr...
Listening to songs lately...
Jap songs seems perfectly nice recently to me...
Dono y....it jus does...
Brought a vest/jacket ting....forgot wat its actually called but....nvm
I tink im kinda hard on her, carried emotions too far...She's right, i shld'nt put so much feelings into it but I cant help it...Im sry
Sry is all i can say...
I don tink she'll read tis but if she does...I don mind letting her noe...
Y r parents such a big obsticle ????...everytime its the same damn ting...
twice actually...but isnt tat enought ?...
Im now in a still under-construction state n the building collapse on me....*dead*
We were talkin bout falling off stairs...
Her: Don fall off the stairs JKJK....lol
Me: Fall le wont die coz its too short to kill me...
Her: Long stairs fall le then fun ma !!! haha
Me: Short, not fun, wont die....Long, fun, directly die
which 1 u wan ? Aiya cant choose the 2nd option la...
Her:Then u leh ?
Me: I wont die so easily...
Her: then take both la....
I could sense abit anger now...coz i late reply her quite alot of times today...
Didnt mean to...
But, still Im the one to blame ma, attitude towards her is like i try to get colder so I hope she's not hurt....
She tells me she doesnt like it so i change...
But doesnt change the fact tat...
I care
Im afraid
I lost...
If fate allows then we MIGHT b together...I don tink tis is wat she wants too..
But I don wan her lying to her parents...I too don wan to affect her studies...
Mayb goin to Higher Nil Tech...Go poly from there...O level, may kill me
Talk to yh just now...He says tat im not mature, I giv ppl those awhile crazy, quiet...
I guess he too doesnt noe me...
Im immature...tats right...
Abit sore throat now...I tink she sleep le...As long as she's fine, Im ok with it...
Im imperfect....Im a flawed piece, But there's not a trace of goodness in it...
I cant pinpoint my strong points but, i find plenty of weaknesses
My posts r long but not Prolonged...I blog when i wan to, when i like to....
Its kinda late...gonna off com soon n sleep le...
All this is not to blame or show any1 wat i wan to change...Its jus my voice within...
Bye...
(Wat m I gonna do ?, Pathetically hanging on to love)
I tink i shld drop soon...or im a goner...but, if i don...results will b the same
K bye...seriously bye...
♥ @ 9:14 AM