Ok i admit i've been a fuckin "mask rider" tis few days....
I made effort trying to change, instead i tink i got worst...
Masked myself....FUCK !!!....zzz
Haix....i dono...i feel low....
Sometimes ppl see wat they like to see, and only tat...
I really don tink i would fit into tat small view they look at...
Even if their view was big, i would b invisible in it...
I cant say wat i want !
I cant do wat i want !
I cant tell the girl i like tat i like her !
I cant even have the faith in myself changing !
There's a saying, The war is over the battle if you are defeated by your own self...
I admit defeat, but I wont just do nothing n watch tings die...
Its in my blood, i just cant do it...
Even if i have to go down, i will do it with glory n satisfaction...
Its not self-confidence you see...
Its my pride, althou i have always admit defeat, i always had the strong urge to win...
Things arent always wat they seem like on the surface....

I want them all to see...
I want them all to praise n admire me !....
I want ALL OF THAT....
Nv tot i had such tots ?....YOU ARE WRONG....I of all ppl want it !!!
Under my skin is a great portion of hatred...
I hate ppl, to the point tat just killing them would b too easy....
Here I want ppl to know...Im not invisible...
I may seem nice guy, but who doesnt have a dark side ?...
Especially someone who had accuminated the fire within for a long time...
When it explodes, no one will b spared...

I the sick guy under tat lamb skin...
I admit i have alot of tots n tings goin in my head...
The feeling of lost...
The feeling of being ignored....
The feeling of being pushed around....

STAB STAB STAB STAB STAB !!!!!....
Let the ppl who belittle me die n suffer in hell....